Paola Nuñez: Discipline and perseverance, on and off camera [Exclusive]

I didn't imagine it when I started, but the interesting thing is that during the process I became very ambitious. When I arrived in Mexico, I didn't think about working so much, but since I started doing it, I wanted more. The same thing happened when I went to America. I thought with effort I can land a small role in any series and get in. When I got there my ambition grew so much that I felt it was never enough. Sometimes it is hard for me to see what I have done and where I have come from. I have to constantly remind myself because I’ve become so demanding that I've lost the ability to stop and appreciate my accomplishments. My eyes are always on the future and on the things that I still lack. There is a duality that creates a constant conflict within me, oscillating between my ambitious mindset and the self-compassion I try to give myself for everything I’ve achieved.

It is a deficiency that many actors suffer from; we lose the ability to enjoy the road and to appreciate achievements.

As a child I just wanted to express myself, because I was always very antisocial, so through my characters I managed to communicate. It was a game that became my profession, but I never thought I could make a living from acting.

This race can greatly attack your self-esteem. They say you get used to rejection, but it's not true, you just learn how to handle it.

I am in a period of change, transition, and gratitude. I feel that my profession has changed significantly, with social media introducing new ways of creation and expression, which you can incorporate or reject and I was doing the latter.

At 46 years old, I am realizing that I don't have to fight it. I can simply choose not to do what is not part of my nature. In my case, the reason I became an actress was to hide behind my characters and social media is the opposite, it exposes you completely and I don't feel comfortable sacrificing my privacy. I have always been very careful because I like to keep a part of my life just for me. If you open the door to people it is very easy for them to hurt you and that world scares me very much.

It was a very personal dream that has brought me great satisfaction. My path has never been easy. It has always meant a lot of work, but I am grateful for my process. When I went to the United States eight years ago, I focused so much on that market that I lost relevance in Mexico. So when I came back a lot of people came up to me to ask me when I was going to act again, although I never stopped doing it.

Yes, I am very determined. A woman who likes adventure, although now I have calmed down. I used to throw myself out of the plane and I liked extreme sports, but not anymore. Even when I'm filming, as was the case with ‘Bad Boys’ or ‘Resident Evil’, I do my own stunts, but if I think that I might get hurt I stop. I'm more aware, but I still like it a lot. Making action movies is what I enjoy the most.

My first job in the United States was in ‘The Son’ with Pierce Brosnan and he was the first world famous star I met. They are such big personalities that, at first, you only know the character they created for themselves. He was very nice and over time Will allowed me to see what he really is like. I have a closer friendship with Vanessa. She is an old soul. She is wise and beautiful. She teaches me a lot.

Kate Winslet and Cate Blanchett are my favorite actresses. I love Emma Thompson too. Although it may not happen, in my dreams I always imagine what it would be like to work with one of those actresses and everything I would learn from them.

Yes, we still don't get paid the same as men, but I think it has a lot to do with the film genre. Action movies are mostly about men and the female characters are not developed as much, but in drama, super interesting films are being made with women as protagonists. I am convinced that there is a greater need for more female directors and writers.

If I had a formula I would work much harder, but I am convinced that the producers value an actress who is professional. I started doing soap operas and I am very grateful because thanks to that I can enter and exit my emotions without problem. I come from a school where we worked from Monday to Saturday and we did 40 scenes a day without having the opportunity to be told: “go concentrate so you can cry” because also in telenovela melodramas you had to cry in 85% of the scenes and I think that prepared me a lot. 

Being extremely responsible, knowing what you're doing, being very technical, and understanding your emotions has been my way of working in the United States. Having a dialect coach to work on the accent is as essential as discipline and perseverance.

Yes, but there have also been many great things. I never wanted to be a mother, but I feel that it would have helped me shift my focus from myself to someone else. As time passes, you create new demands and become hard on yourself. You turn into a racehorse rushing toward the finish line, not enjoying the journey.

In my case, the sacrifice has been not being able to enjoy my family as much because I was so focused on my career, losing sight of what truly matters. Actors often fall into the trap of thinking that fame and prestige will bring happiness. This is why I have great respect for colleagues who retire young because they realize that they are no longer happy.

It would be difficult for a young Paola to understand that this thing that began as a game now supports her and her family, but she would surely be excited to know that we continue playing different characters.

Yes, I was scared to death! It was an interesting process of learning to trust myself. I owe that feeling of confidence to my acting coach. I remember one day we were doing an exercise, and he told my classmates, "Look, she did it well." That was the first time I felt talented. On set, I found myself, but it took a whole process to feel comfortable and confident.

Not until now, but not before. When I moved to the United States it took me a year of auditioning until ‘The Son’ came along. But I have never considered anything else. Acting is the only thing I know how to do. I do not write or sing or dance. However in this moment of transition I have thought about throwing in the towel—not because of something negative, but out of curiosity about what would happen if I dedicated myself to another passion. What if I stop running? That idea intrigues me. 

For the first time, I'm slowing down my career and letting it flow. If this leads to retirement, I'm happy with that, because I'm honestly proud of myself. Today, I look back and embrace that girl from Tecate, telling her, "Look at everything you've achieved! How nice it is that your love for this profession brought you here, but you no longer have to run. You have nothing to prove.

I always speak wonders about CDMX because I miss everything. Sometimes we don't realize that Mexico is a colorful, vibrant country, with spectacular food, which is what I have missed the most during this time; just like the people.

Recently, in this transition that I am experiencing on a spiritual level, I acquired a hummingbird that is representative of this process.

My individuality and my authenticity because I have never been willing to be something I am not, in addition to my family and the people I love. I have always thought that everything I do is for them, they are my reason and if one day I have to defend them, I will. Since my dad died I have taken a stance of leadership and protection at my core. I am an enemy of any animal abuse. There is nothing that generates more helplessness and frustration in me and that is where my new vocation is going.

It is my engine, literally what makes me wake up in the morning. I have suffered from severe chronic insomnia for many years and this takes you to very dark places mentally and generates many negative thoughts. The only thing that always gets me out of there is the love I have for my family, my partner and my dogs. We are in this world to learn to experience love and without it, you have nothing.

I am always the same, but when I am acting is when I feel most confident, talented, important and beautiful. There is my strength and after the cut I return to Paola de Tecate who is insecure and questions herself. My power and my strength is in me as an actress. When I am on that pedestal I feel unstoppable.