Amy Adams: I had a 'meltdown' over turning 40

She’s stunning, has a successful career and a beautiful family, but evensomeone as accomplished as Amy Adams had a meltdown about turning 40. The actress appears on the December cover of Vogue (on newsstands November 19) and revealed her crisis over aging.

"I waslike, ‘I'm 40 and I still care what people think of me; I still don't dolaundry so I'm always out of things; I'm just not a grown-up at all,'" shesays, "and I had this expectation that I would be by this age. It wasn't,‘Oh, I'm getting old and I'm going to lose something vibrant about myself.' Itwas more that I was just... so disappointed with myself."

Amyadmits, "It feels like I worry about everything — mothering,relationship." Luckily Amy got her worries into perspective.

"Youneed to appreciate your life," she says. "Every time I getstressed out or anxious, I say to myself: just live and love. Feel love. Ithink that's what I took away from my turning-40 meltdown."

TheColorado born actress has five Academy Award nominations under her belt and islikely to add to that with her new film Big Eyes, where she plays American artistMargaret Keane, in the biopic directed by Tim Burton.

Amy’spersonal life is just as accomplished — she has a beautiful 4-year-old daughter with her handsome fiancé DarrenLe Gallo.

Amy alsoreveals her struggle to make it in Hollywood in her early days in the revealinginterview.

She was"a mess" her first several years trying to "make it" inL.A., she recalls, "and it really, to this day, gives me perspective, butgoing through it was painful, to say the least."

The actress"was able to do everything from day player to guest star to small parts inmovies.”

"Ifelt a lot of pressure, but I just wasn't able to get there in the auditionroom. Or even in meetings," she says. "My squirreliness would comeout, and people wouldn't feel confident."